Acupuncture & Gua Sha

I've been seeing an acupuncturist. She's amazing. I originally went because a friend of mine told me that she has a great reputation for helping those TTC. I thought it was worth a try. And I'm glad I went. As she explained on my first visit, she doesn't start by focusing on the reproductive organs. She needs to get my body balanced as a whole first, and then she can work on individual systems. The first 2 sessions were focused on over-all balancing. What a difference! I leave each session feeling so much more relaxed!

In addition to the acupuncture she also used a technique called Gua Sha. I knew nothing about it before my appointment. Here's a link to explain the technique - http://www.guasha.com/. I wish I had taken a photo of my back after the session. It was so bruised! My husband couldn't believe it. It looked like someone had whipped me many, many times. Although my acupuncturist said it wouldn't hurt after, I did find my back to be very tender. I think the technique is very interesting and probably works for some - but I didn't feel as good after that session and I think I'll stick to acupuncture.

On my last visit she stuck one of the needles in my left calf. It hurt. A lot. Usually I don't even feel the needles. When I commented on it she said,"That's for baby-making". I had to laugh. So hopefully my balance will become better aligned and the stars will align and whatever else has to happen will happen (ie. sperm meets egg!!) and we will end up with a BFP this cycle!

Fingers crossed!

A baby is being born today!

I know it happens every single day - but today it's my good friend who is becoming a mom. She has a scheduled c-section, a couple of weeks early, because her amniotic fluid is getting very low and the baby is breech. I think it's impacting me so much because I am also TTC (trying to conceive). I now realize how amazing and miraculous life really is. Each baby born is a miracle. I can not wait to meet this little one. We don't know yet if it's a boy or a girl but we do know it will be loved so much. It already is.

Best of luck K! I'm thinking of you! xo

Time to get serious

I stood on the bathroom scale today.

It was not good.

162.8 lbs. I need to put that down in black & white. Confront myself with it. Make myself realize that indeed it is true. I am back to the weight I was when I first joined Weight Watchers in Sept of 2004. At that time I joined because I was depressed. I had broken up with my boyfriend of 3 years and I was in a city where I knew no one. I thought if I could control nothing else, I could control what I put in my mouth. So I joined WW and by March of 2005 I had lost 30 lbs! I remember being so happy. For the first time in my life I loved the way I looked. I loved buying clothes. I loved getting dressed in the morning and getting ready for a night out. It didn't matter what I threw on, it all fit. It all looked good.

Now here I am. Back to square one. I always say, "I'll start Monday", "I'll start tomorrow", "I'll start after :insert celebration:" .... but this is it. A random Tuesday. And I start today.

I need to gain control of my life again. My husband and I are trying for a baby. Five months later and it hasn't happened. Maybe my body is telling me it's not ready. It's too unhealthy. Maybe that needs to be my focus first. And so it will be. Weight loss will now be my focus.

And here I go ......

Being sick sucks ...

So I started feeling crappy yesterday with a sore throat. Now it's all in my head. Sinus pressure! And disgusting post-nasal drip. Sorry if TMI ... but I'm a whiner. I've been spending the day with my pals on 'The Bump' ... catching up with some of them on their blogs. Which reminded me that I haven't updated mine in forever!! So here goes ...

Life is good. We are still trying for Baby L. It's starting to get very stressful. I'm trying to 'give it time' (quote Mom) but am starting to think I might approach my doctor before the year mark to get testing done. Maybe that's impatient. But what's the harm?

In the meantime I'm supposed to be watching what I eat and exercising. Lol ... grade F in both categories. Lots of events in the last little bit. Family gatherings always mean copious amounts of food and usually my childhood favorites! My arthritis has been acting up as well so exercise has been non-existent. So the 10K I signed up for at the end of May will be a challenge!!! I keep saying every month I get a BFN is another opportunity for me to lose some weight. Annnndddd then I don't do anything. I should get my butt is gear. Right after this head cold clears up .... for now I'm going to drown it in ice cream ..... mmmm.