Sushi woes ...

Who knew there was gluten in soy sauce!!!???? Not me. Whoops ... Looks like I need to find a gluten-free version because I can NOT go without my sushi. The only thing I'm giving up sushi for is a baby!

Day 3 - Gluten Free

It's been 3 days ... and I want a sandwich. And cake for dessert. I forgot how hard this was. Right now I'm missing my morning toast with peanut butter the most. Granola bars ... a close 2nd. I know I can buy gluten free granola bars but they are soooo expensive!!! I will probably cave and purchase some eventually but I'm waiting to speak to a co-worker who has been GF for a long time and see if she can recommend some gluten free products. I know some are better than others.


I did purchase a mix for gluten free bread/pizza dough. I absolutely love, love pizza and I'm hoping the mix will be okay.


A friend of mine also brought over gluten free chocolate chip cookies. Surprisingly yummy! They reminded me of a sugar cookie. I need to break out my camera to take some photos of the products. This photo is from the manufacturer's website ... The company is called El Peto and they are based in Ontario (http://www.elpato.com). I think I'll be purchasing more product from them.

Gluten-free .... me?

I'm signing up ... to go gluten-free that is. I need you to realize how big of a deal this is for me. This girl LOVES her pasta. And her bread. But sometimes in life you have to sacrifice. Let me explain.

I have recently been reading info about gluten sensitivities affecting fertility. I have IBS and eczema. Both are thought to be influenced by gluten. I actually went gluten and dairy free for a summer when I was 23. What a difference. So now I'm wondering if my body needs me to do it again. If my body is in a constant state of inflammation secondary to a gluten sensitivity - then this is not the most welcoming place for a pregnancy to begin and thrive. So to give my body it's best shot - I've decided to try it.

It's going to be tough. I usually start my day off with toast and PB, followed by a granola bar for a 10am snack. I need to completely change my habits. But I'm willing to do anything if it means I will be able to have a baby. Keeping my eye on the prize ;0).

Wish me luck!!! And throw your suggestions my way!

Rain

It has been raining here for 6 days straight. People are getting soaked, streets are flooding, basements are turning into swimming pools. And me? I'm getting depressed.

Struggling with infertility is hard. Often I find myself 'faking it'. And no ... not bedroom related 'faking it' ... but mood 'faking it'. I pretend I'm happy. What else am I supposed to do? Tell people how sad I feel a lot of the time? How i love my life but sometimes feel like there's something missing in my house? I wouldn't say I'm clinically depressed .. but there are a lot of days that I am sad. Like today. When the cramps in my stomach are a constant reminder that I am indeed NOT pregnant.

Being sad is okay I think. As long as you can recognize it and not let it engulf you. But to be honest ... I need a little sun in my life to help push the sadness away.