Tuesday, November 9, 2010


It has been raining here for 6 days straight. People are getting soaked, streets are flooding, basements are turning into swimming pools. And me? I'm getting depressed.

Struggling with infertility is hard. Often I find myself 'faking it'. And no ... not bedroom related 'faking it' ... but mood 'faking it'. I pretend I'm happy. What else am I supposed to do? Tell people how sad I feel a lot of the time? How i love my life but sometimes feel like there's something missing in my house? I wouldn't say I'm clinically depressed .. but there are a lot of days that I am sad. Like today. When the cramps in my stomach are a constant reminder that I am indeed NOT pregnant.

Being sad is okay I think. As long as you can recognize it and not let it engulf you. But to be honest ... I need a little sun in my life to help push the sadness away.

1 comment:

  1. I hope that your husband can provide you with a little sunshine. Take your time to be sad-then don't forget to appreciate all that you do have. I hope tomorrow is a better day!